Well... This week thus far has been interesting for sure. I am burnt out & it's only Wednesday. I had my critique for our IDS 2 final design projects today and it didn't go as smoothly as expected. I have been busting my ass for a few weeks and I still did not completely finish my design board. It's not because I've been procrastinating, it's actually because I helped so many people with their projects. I am one of the few people in my studio that knows photoshop so everyone was asking me for help... therefore I wasn't able to finish my stuff. I'm mad because some of the people I helped said they would return the favor & they didn't carry through on their promise. I love being screwed over, especially when getting an award is on the line. I worked so hard so I could have a chance at being one of the top 3 people in my studio and now I'm worried it's in jeopardy. The top 3 get honors & get to present their projects to the whole student body of IDS 2 students and I put my whole heart into the project so I'd love to receive it. I dunno... I'm tired & frustrated by being used.


Updated 5.18

I got my grades back and it turns out I did really well, especially in studio. I ended up getting an A- and my professor wants photos of my model for a booklet and wants to submit my work to the chair of architecture. So if there were four slots for honors, I know I would have received it. My professor hardly gives out A's so it's an honor in itself that I got an A-. I also received an A- in my English class and still did alright in my other 2 classes, getting a B- in each. I bumped up my GPA and now I reapplied to get my scholarship back. Hopefully I'll get it again because I need money for school. But now I feel relieved at how well I did this semester even though everything else in my life felt like it was falling apart.